Missing Nothing

All the fun and laughter that I never had.
Never a talk or walk, never a hug or kiss.

What could have been makes my heart sad.
What is this nothing that I miss?

After so long my heart still aches.
I yearn for love and guidance I never received.

It must be tornadoes, hurricanes, earthquakes.
Anything less keeping you away I can't conceive.

When I think about my collective memories of you,
It always turns out to be so much less than something.

But nevertheless, I miss it, and what could have been, too.
I wonder why i find myself constantly missing nothing?

composed 04-15-03